Really grateful for all of you that have shared how you too, relapsed after long term sobriety....it really makes me feel less alone, and reminds me, "One day at a time." Or an hour, or five minutes if necessary. That's how it's done. When my anxious, fearful mind starts in with the future trip...looking far down the road, and seeing nothing but a string of disasters...that's when I know I'll make that disaster happen, if only to spite myself.