Originally Posted by
sayingprayers 
Thanks gentleman. I am scared it might be too late. Maximus, I am fearful of almost everything these days. I will be fine but the minute I go into the doctor or to see my lawyer, I become tremulous and shaky. BP up. I think it is the guilt and shame as well as my constant fear I am doing non reversible damage.
Oh this really speaks to me. Before I stopped I had progressed to the point of paranoia. EVERYTHING made me anxious and I was sweating all the time. It may not be just the guilt and shame. Continuous alcohol intake alters our chemistry but sobriety shifted things back to normal for me. I had to be sober for about 4 months to really see this because having drank for so many years, I forgot what normal was.