Originally Posted by
Dee74 
This may fit your brain nicely, but maybe that needs to change.
Not because of any 'SR think' or dogma - but because thinking this way - 'I may fail, I may only get through August' - is leaving the door open a crack to more drinking .
i had 15 years of weekly or more than weekly day ones. Now I've been sober since 2007.
One of the reasons for that is that I accepted I can have the life I want, or I can drink - but not both.
I had to choose - and I chose to take drinking off the table as a choice for good.
The fact I'd failed so many times before had no bearing on this time, because I really REALLY wanted to change - and in changing I made better decisions, and I became better for it.
I cannot think of any situation feeling or reason that would make me decide to drink now.
There is no good reason why you cannot get there too
Shut the door on further drinking - for good, ALBA..
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I suppose we have to do what we see best for each other. I've used the "I cannot drink anymore" "That's it I'm now tee-total" "Drinking is now in the past" routine for years and it hasn't worked for me.
This is the first time where I accept that I can fail. I accept that I'm vulnerable and it's enabled me to go beyond any sober period I've had in 20 years. So I'm going to keep on doing what I perceive to be best for me. It's a Sat afternoon and I'm enjoying some healthy food and a 2L bottle of water. Tonight I don't see me relapsing but I need to allow my brain to have to freedom of expression that Its possible. Because If I don't and make it so binary and absolute I won't last. I'll write up my Day 32 after 10pm ( which is when the beer shops close). I'm fairly certain I wont be drinking today.