Yeah really shake it up today Jewel. I don't know how old your kids are but can you go on a walk from 3-5 today? I walked miles and miles in early sobriety. Still do. You fall into a cadence and get into the zone and leave the world behind for an hour or two. But regardless, do something different during that dirty little happy hour that our nag-headed heads seem to seize upon. Keep busy. Write down an agenda for every minute and stick to it today. Your agenda items do not have to be superhuman either. They can simply anything. But script each minute. I think that can help.
Do you have any support for your new endeavor? SR is a great great place to get lots of support but some real life support really helps too. Only another addict can possibly know what you are going through.