I honestly struggled over and over again when I first tried to quit drinking. I think we all have unique journeys and I’m not entirely sure if I felt hopeful when I tried to build a life in recovery. If you just take it one day at a time you can build some momentum. You should be hopeful about your own ability to love yourself. Sobriety is like a foundation for a stable house.
I don’t know if this is relevant but I am getting a puppy with my girlfriend in a few weeks. It has brought up all kinds of anxiety in me. It’s exciting but I just never want to neglect my loved ones again like I did when I was drinking.