The more I learn about my own behavior and that of my fellow humans I am starting to think most of what we do is conditioned and we have little control over it. That's why I like the mindfulness technique so I feel like I have some. None of us chose the brain structure or the experiences that shaped us. I can't count the number of times I've tried to free myself from various compulsions only to fail and try to figure out why I did what I did. I feel like the behavior happens before I can even vote on it then I'm left trying to explain myself. I do appreciate the self-efficacy inherent in that statement tho. I just think it undercuts the effort, support, tools, and whatever else it takes to escape a deeply ingrained cycle. Still, it is possible to jump the tracks and change your destiny if you're an addict.