Congratulations on pouring out the booze!
Alcohol is "cunning, baffling, powerful." For me, there will never be a normal drink. I do not put myself in situations where others are getting drunk. Alcoholism is an obsession of the mind and an allergy of the body. The obsession cannot be dealt with rationally--you can't outthink a broken mind any more than you can outrun a broken ankle.
I found sobriety through the support of others here and in AA. Read around and post often--it works if you work it!