Hi Noam19,
I think you are making the right choice in not going, buddy. Just find a reason and stick to it. It doesnt have to be forever, once you put some distance between you and the drink you will be able to go to these type events again. Stay close to the forums and keep on with This Naked Mind. It's a good book. Read as many as you can and keep engaged with your recovery. Wishing you the very best of luck ✌