I can definitely relate to drinking and not wanting to utilize the tools to get sober... because I wasn't sober at the time.
But that is why those tools are there. So luckily I continued to hang around here and a whole bunch of AA meetings even though much of the time I knew I didn't REALLY want to quit.
Finally one day it just hit me that it needs to be right now. Today.
Obviously this isn't easy. But my daily life has gotten much smoother. And I actually feel healthy which is really nice. Now I need to keep learning so I can make sure I stay stopped.