When I first discovered recovery and the WQD website (similar to this one) that is now taken down in 2006 I drank for a while and read around. started posting and was still drinking then I started quitting and did so for 5 years. I am not saying you should keep drinking and we will all mostly advocate for you to stop today but if you need to start going to AA meetings before you have quit and that will help you quit then I don't see a problem with that. I don't know if this is a controversial statement or not or if I am going to get kickback I am just brainstorming for you. If you do that I would say it should not be obvious you are doing it. Wouldn't be fair to the others in the meeting. After typing all that though it sounds similar to moderation, too much work. Quit and then on day 1 start is another option. Welcome back