The most important thing was I wanted to quit. I really really really wanted to live a normal life. A life that allowed me to achieve all the God given ability I had. Booze had reduced me to a dead man walking.
If I didn't want to quit 100%, it would have been impossible. My addiction was too strong.
The hell to get clean, which I describe as a continued effort beginning with a 2 plus year treck in and out of sanity, was only achievable this long by this forum. Others use AA, SMART, etc etc.
If I was not told what was going on and what will happen if I drink again, I would have relapsed over and over.
The mental and physical damage was way more than I realized. The degradation is insidious.
My questions have not been answered in one thread. They took a few months of quearies and squirrel chases to develop my way of getting my act together.
Hope this helps.
Thanks.