Meraviglioso

Thanks for that. I am really trying hard to figure out what to do now. I am doing my usual, up early, cleaned a little, I plan on taking on a big project later.
My boyfriend leaving me changes things significantly in terms of my visits with the children. I am only allowed to see them if someone else is with me. He was there, and we did fun things together like going to the beach or for bike rides. More than missing him I am sad about what this will mean for seeing my children. That sounds awful doesn't it? Like I was using him. I guess I was.
I signed up for that Better Help app, it's online counselling. I did that after the death of George Floyd, I just felt like I needed to speak in English with an American who could understand my emotions. I think in Italy they "get" racism, but I just felt like I wanted to speak to an American about this. This app has proven to be helpful but it is clear I need to do more.