Hi Jttx. I agree with DontRemember - it takes time & we're all different. Some are happy right away & never look back. I drank for decades & when I was first sober, I very disoriented for a while. I had to learn to live in a whole new way, since drinking was part of everything I did. I felt like I'd lost my best friend - which of course was absurd. Yes, I was grateful to no longer be trapped by it - needing to have it constantly available - but there wasn't much joy early on for me. After about 3 mos. I felt myself coming out into the sunshine. I finally saw that I could enjoy life again being stone cold sober - I did not need that buffer - didn't need to stay numb & foggy.
I spent some time feeling sorry for myself, remembering only the good times & forgetting the hell I put myself (and others) through. I think that's normal.
I'm glad you wanted to vent. We're here to encourage you. Be proud of your 30 hard earned days.