I'm at 71hrs now and had 2 really good conversations with a cousin and a person I live with, it was great! My thoughts were clear and I listened to what they said. I have talked to them so many times completely drunk and now I cant help but wonder did they notice? Ofcourse they did, they must have, now will they know just how long I have been drinking because how could they not smell it. I drank before social interactions almost 90% of the time, all those people just smelling my shame. All my college classes, work, God knows what else. All these people who I will be talking to, some i'm sure I haven't spoken to sober in years. So many forgotten conversations on my part. I am just embarrassed and ashamed.