Thanks Dee. I don’t want to waste these services time when there are people in real need of help. My problem is self inflicted and I chose to make it worse. I chose a drink, I am totally responsible for all this and if I made different choices everything would be ok. But I make stupid and bad choices, it’s all on me. I can’t in all good faith carrying on wasting other people’s time with something I should be able to fix, in fact something only I can fix. x