Hi D2D. Glad you are here with us. "I don't wish to relive all of my past failures", "of which I will not go into great detail" and "I would rather not dive into that right this minute". I think you might be a little resistant and closed off right now, but that's ok. Let's get sober and healthy, once and for all. I'm 3+ months sober for the first time in over 30 years. You are wise to get this figured out at such a young age. I'm 20 years gone from you and there is nothing I wouldn't give to have those 20 years back sober. Don't lose another decade or two to drinking. Give yourself the better part of your life to live healthy, calm and clear-headed. It will be amazing.