You are only one of your friends and family that doesn't drink - wow, right there sums it up Ladybug. Years ago I had an opioid addiction, I quit using and cut dead all connections. That was easy. 'Normal' people don't run around shooting up heroin. But with alcohol, it is very different. I am lucky too because I it didnt take me too long to relax with the social stuff out and about. I can be just as much of an a**hole sober as drunk and can still party. So I guess I can be grateful for that. It is really only at home, outside my house my life hasnt changed much. There is the odd social situation I decline, such as fancy French restaurants that I know are going to be as much about the wine list as food. But overall I still do everything as before. I will count my blessings. Your post gives me hope Ladybug66 and you have done terrifically well. Strong. Definitely a lot to be proud about there.