Maybe you are bi sexual mate?
theres swinging web sites out there that are very open minded on all aspects of sex.
it really shouldn’t be a problem, it’s society’s rules that make it a problem and a bit taboo but I do feel like things are changing.
There’s gay , bi , bi curious and straight in these web sites along with all other sorts of fetishes. It could help you feel not alone and there’s a world of different people on this planet so there’s no normal.
well done being free from booze .