I needed to just get this out. It's so hard for anyone to listen amongst my family/friends/therapist. Just get blank stares or shrugs.
I heard about a dentist/oral surgeon who committed suicide because he developed a degenerative disease (wasn't arthritis) that prevented him from performing procedures because it affected his motor skills. He just didn't know what to do because he lost his dental practice/medical license as a result. Wife left him because he started to drink alcoholically. He shot himself in a hotel room. Died alone. I can empathize with that completely.