Boredom is killing me....
I have 2 main triggers: boredom and anxiety. I am unemployed, single, and live alone. Friends/family are no where near me. My drinking is the reason for all this. I can't date because my life is in shambles and no woman would see my current situation as being acceptable in a partner. I am on medication for ADHD that has sexual side effects anyway so I can't offer much in that respect.
I have way too much time to myself. Drinking is my only respite from my miserable existence. I am fortunate that my family are in a position to pay my bills but I don't feel like an adult man. I have huge barriers to employment due to the red flags I raise. I have done over a hundred interviews in the last decade.
Why should I be sober? I just can't find a reason since I have nothing left to lose. Hobbies/volunteering are not something I think can do. My ADHD is such that get bored very easy and things just don't stick for long.
Thanks for letting me vent!