Welcome Back Tank...
Like Laurie, I can't think in broad terms like "I can never drink again, ever for the rest of my life." It just seems too overwhelming for me ... I have to think about right now today. Just for today I am not going to drink. It is more manageable for me.
Sometimes I have bad days where I literally go minute to minute, luckily those days are getting fewer and fewer.
Maybe a meeting here tonight would be helpful...