They had tons of alcohol and cocaine until 7am and she ended up giving him a *******. When I found out I was devastated and still am affected by this (it happened in September 2019), but I stayed.
why? why was cheating ok? why was the rampant drug use ok? what is your low bar here on how you will allow a relationship partner to behave and still stick around?
this isn't about him. it's about what you are willing to accept from another person. not what you think future potential him might be like, but blowing thru booze and coke and other women and then saying sorry, like that fixes anything.