Going back to work tomorrow. I have been off work since my detox in the ER on December 17th. I’ve never been off work for more than a week and those were vacations. Even when I switched jobs, I would start the new one the day after.
I could’ve went back a few days after my detox but I ultimately decided to take an unpaid month off. Just to take some time and refocus my life. It has been so hectic over the past 5 years that I never took the time to slow down.
Scared and excited at the same time. Scared that I now have to face a job with knowing I can’t reward myself with a buzz at the end of the day. Excited that I’m going to finally live a life that I can be proud of.
My vacation is over. Over the past month I have really cherished my extra time with the kids, got my priorities in order, lost 12 pounds and got cleared by my doctor that I’m perfectly healthy again. Most importantly I started down the road of sobriety and rediscovering the person that my family can be proud of.
It’s been a helluva month
