Thanks, O. I hear you, yes. Alcohol is a real b*** of a taskmaster, though, is it not? Learning the hard way, is sort of synonym with booze. We stuff up so many things while we drink and then have to try and fix as many of them as possible once we are sober.
Fortunately, there are some things that can be fixed; the rest we just have to learn to live with. "Time heals all wounds", they say - and although I don't agree with that in full, it does get better, I'm sure.
In the meantime, we still have our dreams and at least we can do something about them...