All 5 responses were great I resonated with everything.
iam generally considering seeing a specialist very soon to better deal with this ongoing problem. I've had it for years something is going on.
i once went sober for 3 months and at month 3 I had this exact same attack.
My father is fine but my mother has been in heavy depression all her life come to think of it. But I know for a fact alcohol is a big part of it.