First of all, I too was suckered by alcohol as an attempt at regulating/controlling my anxiety.
Sure you know this but its BAD news and will keep you in a hellish vicious cycle.
When I came here a hot, hysterical, blubbering mess, some wise forum member who noticed my pattern said it seemed that the horrific binges were an emotional release of sorts.
I think he was spot on in my case. Dont know if it rings true for you, just throwing it out there.
What finally seems to be working for me is an anti D that is also prescribed for anxiety.
My compulsion to binge compulsivly is gone.
I have lifes up and downs but theyre much more manageable and I never get the urge to binge anymore.
I was a severe case, so just throwing it out there in case it helps.
i have hope for the first time in a long time and can manage my emotions in healthier ways now.
Maybe see a doctor?
Oh one more thing. Ive gotten better on this medication without benzos. Not one in at least over 4 months. Dont need then anymore. Thank God.