I would certainly ring you, but not sure what country or area of the world you are in. My mobile plan may not support long-distance to where you are. What I can say is that this forum is full of people who struggle with addiction and have been in your situation before. I will 'go out on a limb' and guess you feel a sense of impending doom. It is a bad place to be in. Keep posting and we can talk you through it!