Lacking motivation
Currently lacking any motivation to stop drinking. When I stopped for 10 months the AA promises never came true for me. Enjoyed AA initially but then fell out with a few people and couldn't face going to meetings.
My sister is a vile creature who has assaulted me on several occasions in my mother's home. I think she is a dry drunk with mental issues. Real bitter 'the whole world is against me' type who has recently focused on me as the cause of her perceived difficulties, even though she has a job, house and excellent qualifications, and a dog that my elderly mother is mainly left to look after.