Welcome, SunnyCoastK and Happy New Year to you!
Having lurked, you already know what a fine diverse group of supportive folks frequent these halls. I am certain you will find it even more so now that you've taken the dive and presented yourself.
Recognizing how you've been burying your past hurts in alcohol is an enormous stride in the right direction. It's something I've always known, but didn't really fully understand because I didn't have the capacity to put it all together.
While I'm usually fussy about grammar, punctuation, and run-on sentences, I try to give myself a break here and most certainly will give you a pass! But I do like it that you care - I sense we'll get along swimmingly.
Please stick around.
O