trailmix

Yes it still hurts. The only way through that hurt is going through it and time. Every time he treats you like this you get hurt all over again and have to start healing again, then he will show up (maybe after jail again).

If he doesn't change this is not going to end well for him.

Do you want to be part of that? You know this relationship is going exactly nowhere longer term. There will be no marriage and children and white picket fence?

This is truly a time waste for you. You could be in a relationship with a great guy who shows you respect and kindness.

The current ex may have some good attributes, however, he has shown you (many times) that he has a major deficit of character and integrity.

So yes, you may be better off without him and no that doesn't stop it hurting.

I have a couple of suggestions for you.

Write a list of every terrible and mean thing he has ever done to you. Why? Because the mind doesn't really favour dwelling on negatives, so you have to remind yourself.

Start taking care of yourself, decide what you want to do with your life and go with that, whether that is a move, a career path, a hobby or learning to ride a horse!