i truly hope you seize this opportunity to claim sobriety and life.
trust me when i say you won't get that many more chances. you are not 10 ft tall and bullet proof. you have a disease that WILL kill you....that is it's sole purpose.
my mom was one of those later stage alcoholics, that after a stint in the hospital, had ONE chance to stop. her doc said that if she drank again at all ever it would KILL her. i, her only child, mother of her only grandchild, was in the room.
she chose to drink again. and yup, it KILLED her. not all at once, oh no, it was ugly and inhumane, as her liver failed and her abdomen swelled to that of a 7th month pregnancy. she turned a hideous shade of yellow/green. they had to keep her in a morphine coma due to the pain in her body due to all the toxic build up.
i share this to let you know this is how it can end.........unless you sever your relationship with alcohol and find another way to live life on life's terms.