Just out of ER.
This last bender wasn't my worst. At least, I think it wasn't. However, this time around I have very little memory. Just random snap-shots in my head that I can't tell if they really happened. No serious injuries this time like in years past. No fights that I can remember. No jobs lost or girlfriends to alienate. No time in jail etc.
However, what was different this time was the withdrawal symptoms. I was experiencing visual and audio hallucinations to go along with the extreme anxiety and insomnia. I walked to ER late last night and I was admitted within 10 minutes and pumped full of valium. The medical staff were great. Very empathetic.
Hospital paid for a taxi home and gave me a prescription for valium for a couple days. The kindling is getting too much. I really hope I get it this time because that was complete mental torture that I never experienced before.
Day 1.