Originally Posted by
shellatron 
In all honesty I have never really considered AA based on what I've read about it because I feel like its just not for me. I definitely am NOT 100% closed off to it though. My plan really is to get support now from my wife, family, friends, and everyone apart of this community. I have had incredible self control in the past with my drinking so its all a matter of not giving in at the times of weakness (which surprisingly not THAT often once I have sobriety distinctly in my head).
Way to go on your 11th meeting!!!!!
How do you know if it's not for you if you don't go? I was the same way and had my mind changed in about 10 minutes. My advice? Find a meeting and go today. I'll bet (unless you live in podunk mississippi) that there is a meeting close by at 5:30, 7:00, and 8:30. Also check to see if there is a SMART meeting anywhere near you. It's AA without the spirituality aspect. Also I think you overestimate your self control since you can't stop drinking when you start. No offense meant, just kind of a reality check.