so my point is often i think if i can do all the right things and out of my control it all goes to hell. Then whats the point. Whats the point of all the progress i made and so on.
The point is recovery can't be conditional on having things go the way we want. Look at it this way: if you drink you'll still be broke and poor plus you'll also be drunk. When I'm sober I at least have hope. Sounds like it would be a good idea to do a gratitude list then figure out how you can help another alcoholic. Good luck!