Also hoping we see Karen.
I keep thinking about a woman I knew in AA years ago who was sober for 20 years and 'slipped' at Christmas and just could not stop drinking again. At the time, I couldn't understand it. I can now....she tried for a few months and then said she was not coming back to AA and please leave her alone. So we did.
It still hurts my heart even all of these years later....she was so gripped by the obsession and compulsion of this illness again virtually instantly and she just gave up her life. I have no idea how long she lived, I kind of didn't want to know.