Thanks for your replies. Just one of them days. I can truly feel when the depression lessens and the, let's say AUD, rises.
It's just various neuroses like storms passing through. Serenity shall return I'm sure, probably when I go on my next run tomorrow.
Also, one meeting a week is usually enough for me, maybe it's been too much talk on the subject (and oftentimes - frustratingly - talk AROUND the subject) for me this weekend.
And yeah I'm actually like seven and a half months sober or something. I wouldn't really **** with a streak like this.