Wildflower said it well. It brings nothing but misery and trouble. Aren't you coming up on 7 months sober? I'm glad you have 0 chance of drinking. Yeah, life sucks sometimes but my worst day sober is still much better than my best day drunk.
I'd rather live in my car with my dogs than live in a castle without them.
Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole.
Don't wait for the Last Judgement. It takes place every day. -Albert Camus
Find the good and praise it. - Alex Haley
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I’m fond of the break-up analogy. After all, wine was my best buddy and constant companion. And just like a break up, time passes and the bad fades away. Ah, the good times.
Then you kick yourself back to reality and realize that it was mostly pissing on the toilet seat, crumbs on the couch, and stealing the covers. Yep, dodged that bullet!
Just remember what it was really like.
It hit me like a train today too! I was planning the drink.
I am sooooooooooo glad I made it another day. I know in my heart
that I would of picked up for sure in the past even if I wanted to be Sober= it was just to painful my last drunk. Not drinking no matter what.
Today my first responsibility to myself is to lay my head on my pillow sober tonight. I am a success and a miracle one day at a time. Sober date 10/26/19
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Tetrax, have you read "Drinking: A Love Story" by Caroline Knapp? I think it might resonate with you.
Yeah I've read it, maybe I should dig it out again. I've just finished Infinite Jest so I'm a bit lost without that particular companion of a book (which by the way def needs to go on the reading list, a truly great encyclopedic novel about addiction - took me five months).
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Tetrax - I do know what you mean & agree about those feelings of 'lost love'. Eventually those thoughts faded away though - and I never long for it any more. I drank 30 yrs. & never expected it to be far from my thoughts - but it is.
You are so much more than the worst thing you've ever done. Fr. Greg Boyle
A little voice deep inside me said, "Hello, I am here." It was a small voice, & sounded as if it were buried underneath the cushions of my couch. It was my soul...I had forgotten it.
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It was like that for me too. It took me 6 months to get to the point where I dedicated this song to my alcoholic life:
She's left me no chance at redemption
No further exemption
Just a big red "Goodbye" in lipstick on the wall
Goodbye says it all
No long explanation
No let's-talk-it-over number I can call
Goodbye says it all
Complete abstinence is easier than perfect moderation...This means YOU Silentrun!
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The compulsion to drink can leave an alcoholic. A wonderful sober life in recovery is available for anyone who truly wants it. It’s possible to be around alcohol and be in a position of total neutrality and have nothing but gratitude for ones alcoholism 🙏
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This week i paid my first visit back to the home city i left a few months ago and walked thru the old neighborhood. Passed several bars and talked to a couole drinking buddies standing out front and continued in my way.
I too was feeling nostalgic but i had to remind myself that my drinking didnt stop at the bar but continued on by myself at my place, sometimes for days.
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Once I got away from my toxic exAgf and had a couple months sober, I realized it was the exact same 'feeling'.. Now, a couple years later..I don't even think about either one that often. Still some random dreams and 'what if' moments pop up but, they fade quickly. Just keep doing the next best/right thing for YOU, is my advice.
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I can really identify. I was the same. Still can be 19 months in. My alcoholism completely romanticizes the drink. Wine. My poison. (Literally). Willow's post hits the nail on the head. THINK THINK THINK those first couple of drinks ALL the way through to the bitter end. Well now, that I do not miss lol. Good old Serenity Prayer. I accept today that I am an alcoholic and cannot tolerate alcohol in any way shape or form. I can change my thinking around it and as Dee says build a life I love that I do not wish to escape from by drinking.
These thoights and feelings do come but it is what we do with them that matters. 7 months ago I bet you would have given anything to be where you are now? The good news is, by working our recovery pn a daily basis we never need to revisit the hell we were we in before. As long as we stay away from that FIRST drink
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I am 17 days in but have been reading on SR for a few months. The most powerful suggestion thus far when struggling with temptation has been to just play the tape forward and look at how the first drink inevitably ends. I am very new but that particular visualization tool is extremely effective with me. Play the tape. Play the tape. I'm still working out my plan for this thing, but that one is powerful.
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We all have old flames who got under our skin and caused immense joy one minute and were just a complete pain in the backside the next. Whilst we’re better off without them, we can look back fondly to the good times, but if we happen to see them by chance, we’ll cross the road and pretend not to notice
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