This is not a rude question....
All these people aside, you daughter, husband, friend...
What do you want? And truly want?
Do you want to be sober?
Do you want to be able to have just a couple and stop?
I think examining this is a good idea.
I always wanted to stop the day after I did something BAD
I always wanted to be sober once someone told me I needed to or they would leave, blaa blaa...
It wasn't until I wanted to be sober for ME that the true change happened and seeing that you have been here since 2013 reminds me of myself. Always trying for someone else, but not me.
Blessings,
DC