Thanks everyone. I'm on a business trip right now, and doing so-so. Once I get home I am throwing out all the bottles to reduce temptation. The problem is, when I get home, my husband will be out of town for several days. This will leave me alone and lonely in the house with that ugly voice of alcohol in my head.... hopefully not having the bottles in the house is enough. I'd call a friend, but the last several times I've been out with them, I've been obviously wasted. And I'm sure they prefer not to hang out anymore. Anyway, I really feel like I need to get myself together first.
What I will do is swing by the bookstore and pick up the recommendations... thank you. I appreciate the help.