trailmix

That little bear is so cute!

Remember, you don't have to worry too much about what is best for "everyone", I really hope you focus on what is best for you here and going forward.

Everyone else, including your XF are looking after themselves, that is for sure. This is not a bad thing, it's something we are supposed to do. Not in some selfish way (not that you are selfish at all) but in a taking good care of ourselves way.

Your only concern perhaps should be, as I mentioned, will this hurt me possibly. You are at such and early stage here. Its confusing as well since you have been in some contact recently. That does make you more vulnerable.

It's hard. This is not something you want, but it is. It's a struggle. I'm sure one minute you feel angry and the next sad and then indifferent then back to angry, it is its own kind of hell. Indecision about what to do next.

So time to give yourself a break perhaps. Stand back, let those cards fall were they may. More will be revealed as they say.