Alcohol is a depressant, so you’ll feel depressed after drinking. Time to stop the downward spiral.
For me, it took getting help from others. I did a medically assisted detox in a local detox center. I saw my doctor, who prescribed me anti craving meds. And I started an outpatient program. After so many attempts to do it myself, this approach has worked. I also go to AA and Refuge Recovery meetings.
Good luck to you, as the saying goes, if I can do it, so can you!