faith823

This describes my active alcoholism and the feelings I feel while withdrawing.

I was actually romanticizing a drink today. After this disease has me by the throat. I thought two glasses of chardonnay and then I can start again tomorrow. I *only* have 11 days. I can still set my sobriety date again before Thanksgiving...blah blah blah Transported myself right to the bar/atmosphere I craved. (yeah right) I contemplated it which scares me.

I ended up going to the Dr's since it has been over a year.
Then I went to a meeting. Just made a nice dinner of baked ziti.

I can not get to confident and this is such a minute by minute battle for me.

Thank you for all the support- This board was in my minds eye when I got through this craving.