Hey all...
I've avoided coming back here...
I have some thoughts and they are mine... but.. they are not pro medication.. that's for sure...
I have struggled with anxiety, depression, polarized behavior, suicidal tendencies..
and I have always self medicated to try and cope with all this.
I have tried so many times in the past to talk to my doctors about it...
but the shame of my addictions.. the bulimia.. sex issues... yadda yadda yadda....
I would start to open...
and then they must have grasped how big the problem was I was gonna be... and they started talking shrinks and medications...
who me..??
no way..
nothing wrong with me that fixing everyone else wont' fix..,.. ;o)
And so I stewed...
made life hell for everyone...
puked my stuff all over the place...
felt like the walking dead...
and then found the program.
Slowly.. started changing behaviors...
and other things changed as a result...
life got easier...
changed some more...
easier still
got triggered to flippin back into my sick place many times...
worked my way out...
and then...
4 years ago.. I started to cry.
and really began to seek for the answers...
What I think today that prompted me to post this thread is that...
I think that what I think creates emotions...
and emotions create a chemical reaction in my body and mind...
and negative emotions create a toxic chemical imbalance in my persona...
psychotropics put a lid on this...
and the emotional negative abscess is never drained.
I believe today that my body/mind inherently knows how to right itself if I just allow it to do that...
but.. our families.. work... committments...
they don't allow us the time and space to work through our shyte... so... we are stuck in coping hell.
using meds that could conceivably do the things those articles say they do...
like make it harder to get well.
I love all you guys...
and my struggle is the same as yours...
I just think we could maybe question the use of these drugs... and research for ourselves what they are truly doing...
Are we really taking pills just to conquer our own thoughts..??