Thanks for all the replies I received this far and for those who took time out of your day to write or reply to me. (((hug))).

to trailmix who asked what happened the weekend -no relapse, but I think I he isolated himself when he feels stressed or overwhelmed. Not a great coping strategy if you trying to overcome addiction but whom am I to say that? I know nothing about any of this.

I just miss. Sometimes the only way out of the fire is thru. I’ll be okay. Thanks to everyone. Trying to read up on the subject currently to educate myself.