I still suffer at 4 plus years sober. I still crave, but since I still feel damaged from boozing, I don't want to slow any recovery w a relapse.
I get endorphins and dopamine now from so many things. I don't want to mess that up.
I used to wonder why little kids would get so happy for no real reason or from seemingly little things. It is because they have natural and unaltered endorphins.
I have that now and will never give it up.
Thanks.