Its great to hear from you BonnieFloyd - congrats on 9 months.
I began to think the AV would never die either - but it did. Just took a little longer than I wanted.
This is a great recent thread - worth a read
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...fade-away.html (Wishing you could still have a drink really does fade away)
The fact it's still there is not necessarily a reflection on you or your programme IMO. Some of us drank for years. It takes a little time to grow and change
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