Originally Posted by
ColoradoRocky 
Hiya Gabe, I don't know you, and maybe you Scots are just very polite and reserved people, but this doesn't have the tone of resignation and determination I like to see in someone who's serious about their alcoholism and willing to do anything to get away from drinking.
Are you very sure you can't control your drinking?
Me? I was thoroughly beaten, in total surrender, and willing to do anything I was told.
It's a fair point. I definitely can't control my drinking once I start. Your right too. I don't feel that determination or have strength/belief this time will be any different. I feel utterly hopeless, if I'm honest. I'm just praying to God for a change of mindset and acceptance of reality.