One last time
One last time
I'm back. Broken, bruised and have spent an horrific night vomiting but I'm back. I'm ready to do all I can to stay sober before this kills me. Thank god for this place.
Hi Dee. It's lovely to hear from you.
Yeah, I have quite a few. I was going to AA for a bit and for me it seems like this might be a good place to start. I have the number of a lovely woman who I'm hoping might sponsor me.
I've got a first alcohol counselling app on Tuesday morning. I think I get 12 sessions and I need to talk about feelings of shame. I think thats a big factor in all this.
I've had a few months sober time but I still always end up back here and its terrifying. I came off antabuse and spiralled really quickly. I also know than when I take I don't take responsibiliy for my recover. It just all sucks and I hate it.
Phew....
Yeah, I have quite a few. I was going to AA for a bit and for me it seems like this might be a good place to start. I have the number of a lovely woman who I'm hoping might sponsor me.
I've got a first alcohol counselling app on Tuesday morning. I think I get 12 sessions and I need to talk about feelings of shame. I think thats a big factor in all this.
I've had a few months sober time but I still always end up back here and its terrifying. I came off antabuse and spiralled really quickly. I also know than when I take I don't take responsibiliy for my recover. It just all sucks and I hate it.
Phew....
Nothing will change unless things change. I'm sorry to hear that you're still drinking. It's been a couple years since the horrific incident on the side of the road that sent you here. How are things going to be different this time? Can you convince yourself and truly believe that you can never have another drink?
Good for you for coming back here. There is a better life waiting for you.
Good for you for coming back here. There is a better life waiting for you.
I've been asking myself the same thing. I don't have any belief that I can actually do it and I must be in denial. I MUST be. What I am doing is so dangerous, I'm lucky to be alive.
How do I accept this? How do I change from denial to acceptance. I've never managed to get there.
How do I accept this? How do I change from denial to acceptance. I've never managed to get there.
Agreed. Starting now. Thank you for the welcome 😄 it's not the easiest thing owning where I am just now but I've seen the forum work for so many people. I've never properly committed to any of this, I'm ashamed to say.
Are you very sure you can't control your drinking?
Me? I was thoroughly beaten, in total surrender, and willing to do anything I was told.
Hiya Gabe, I don't know you, and maybe you Scots are just very polite and reserved people, but this doesn't have the tone of resignation and determination I like to see in someone who's serious about their alcoholism and willing to do anything to get away from drinking.
Are you very sure you can't control your drinking?
Me? I was thoroughly beaten, in total surrender, and willing to do anything I was told.
Are you very sure you can't control your drinking?
Me? I was thoroughly beaten, in total surrender, and willing to do anything I was told.
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You are still alive so you aren't hopeless.
You have started by praying. I love that. That's where I started.
Go back to AA, ask this woman to take you through the steps, commit 100% to your recovery and you wont ever have to drink again, one day at a time.
You have started by praying. I love that. That's where I started.
Go back to AA, ask this woman to take you through the steps, commit 100% to your recovery and you wont ever have to drink again, one day at a time.
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