Hey backandscared,

i think a year is a good amount of time to let your sobriety take hold before making any big decisions.

Something I learned and really always knew is that I don’t love my husband. From the very start. I grew comfortable with him and now we have a baby together.

Maybe I’ll grow to love him. Maybe I should leave him. Be honest with him. Give him a chance to find a girl who will love him back. A chance at true happiness. He always use to say how he wasted so much time with me when there are so many other girls out there.

Or maybe I’m still too fresh in the sobriety. I don’t know. All I can think about right now is that I’m being selfish. Brought a baby girl into this world selfishly. Too late now.

I guess only time will tell. So take your time before you make any big decisions. Sometimes you can’t go back. Maybe couples counseling could help you and your husband too. Won’t know till you try.