Runner, Good for you for getting right back at it.
Day 13. This addiction is ruthless. it cares nothing about our well being; only about being fed. I am going to work really hard this time to avoid drinking situations and letting myself entertain any thoughts about drinking. As I begin to feel better, they have popped up briefly, but I'm quickly shutting them out and reminding myself I no longer drink. I was so sick and miserable. It is so bizarre how the brain can forget the misery and just wants the quick escape or buzz the wine provided. Alcohol is a liar and a destroyer.
This is not easy, but I think I finally understand that I've got to put more work into this than I was in the past. I sure put a lot of time and energy into sneaking and drinking. It's time to put the time and energy into health and spiritual growth. No more A. You don't own me anymore.
Sweet dreams, dear class.